Father God, as the weeks pass by I keep looking up and realizing that I haven’t been the servant I promised I would be. I keep committing myself to follow in Christ’s footsteps with the best intentions but along the way, the business of life interferes and I allow everything else to overshadow my focus on Your Word. Lord God, I believe the hardest part of getting back on track is knowing that I have to start over again. I have to repent. I have to be forgiven and I have to start anew… but anew means at the beginning, and it’s disappointing to be starting back at one after all this time.

We all have our faults, whether small or large and I don’t believe that I am doing myself any favors by buying into society’s views that my flaws are insignificant. Father please forgive me for ignoring the conviction of the Spirit and comparing my sins to those of others. We are all on different levels of our walk and I cannot scale my transgressions by measuring the faults of those who are still finding You. I thank You for placing within me the assignment of a leader and I fall on my face before Your feet, asking forgiveness for putting that call on hold - for placing my own ambitions ahead of Your plan for me.

I thank You for everyone You’ve placed in my life, Father God… for every experience, for every test and every trial – the ones that hurt, the ones that taught – because each hardship has only made me seek Your face more adamantly than before. Thank You for loving me in spite of myself and for continuing to be patient with me. Father God, please help me to mirror the behavior of Jesus more wholly than I have – to forgive, to lead, to love, and to listen. Lord, my wish is to walk in Your Will completely, with compassion and understanding. In the name of Jesus, I stand before Your throne in prayer. Amen.