Father God, as the weeks pass by I keep looking up and realizing that I haven’t been the servant I promised I would be. I keep committing myself to follow in Christ’s footsteps with the best intentions but along the way, the business of life interferes and I allow everything else to overshadow my focus on Your Word. Lord God, I believe the hardest part of getting back on track is knowing that I have to start over again. I have to repent. I have to be forgiven and I have to start anew… but anew means at the beginning, and it’s disappointing to be starting back at one after all this time.
We all have our faults, whether small or large and I don’t believe that I am doing myself any favors by buying into society’s views that my flaws are insignificant. Father please forgive me for ignoring the conviction of the Spirit and comparing my sins to those of others. We are all on different levels of our walk and I cannot scale my transgressions by measuring the faults of those who are still finding You. I thank You for placing within me the assignment of a leader and I fall on my face before Your feet, asking forgiveness for putting that call on hold - for placing my own ambitions ahead of Your plan for me.
I thank You for everyone You’ve placed in my life, Father God… for every experience, for every test and every trial – the ones that hurt, the ones that taught – because each hardship has only made me seek Your face more adamantly than before. Thank You for loving me in spite of myself and for continuing to be patient with me. Father God, please help me to mirror the behavior of Jesus more wholly than I have – to forgive, to lead, to love, and to listen. Lord, my wish is to walk in Your Will completely, with compassion and understanding. In the name of Jesus, I stand before Your throne in prayer. Amen.
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Amen! With this post, you’ve convinced me that I need finish this book triple-ASAP! I’ve been procrastinating too long for the wrong reasons. I’m getting back to work this very night – by tomorrow I’ll be looking for publishers.
By the way, I found this post via Twitter after following your comments about those DA fees – I encourage you to remember God’s timing and reasons for it all. Sometimes we have to go down a dark road to get to the place He wants us to be. What might start out looking like a horrible consequence can sometimes turn into a blessing.
It’s already working…you’ve blessed me with this post that I never would have read otherwise. How’s that for God’s perfect and magnificent plan?!
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February 2nd, 2010 at 4:51 pm
Thank you Kiesha. I appreciate you commenting!! God is awesome. He is larger than any burden this world can present!! :) Good luck in your writing/publishing!
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When I got to the end I said AMEN! This post goes hand in hand with our pastors sermon on Sunday. It was the end of a 4 part series called When God Speaks! One of the bullet points from the sermon said that God wants us to stop making excuses. I felt like God was talking directly to me through her. And now again I fel that He is speaking to me through you.
You see I just began my Christian walk less than a year ago and I have already “fell off”. I don’t worship like I should, read His word like I should, and praise Him like I should. And the whole time I’m making excuses on why instead of just starting over again. No more excuses for me the time is now.
Thanks so much Kat I always enjoy your posts. May God Bless you and keep you.
Andrea B.
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